Student Story - Karen Garay

Karen Garay
My Personal Plan For Success
Octobert 6, 2011

My name is karen, and this is my essay on my personal plan for success, It’s funny how many times I have tried writing this essay over and over I’m not too good at this whole essay thing so please bare with me. I’ll start by telling you what my personal plan for success means to me. It’s not just a couple of words in a sentence, oh no. It means everything to me, My main focus in life right now is to stay sober and it’s been my plan for such a long time but it’s the first time in my life that, i’ve actually accomplished this goal and i’m success. I went thru a whole lot to get here. My life has been thru it’s up’s and downs’ real hart times due to drugs.

I remember going back a couple years ago and just thinking about my plan for success. About when I was younger I had all these hopes and learns of becoming so many things for myself, making my as I got older my hopes and dreams vanished and making my mother proud was not on my agenda.

Growing up never did Imaging that at my plans for success whole be to. Stay sober as a child I never ever know what, drugs were. To me drugs meant the aspirin in the bathroom cabinets my mom did a real job at raising me. It wasn’t unit I grew up that I discovered drugs on my own. I was only 18 becoming a young adato just got my first job. Still in school, first bank accounts. I was doing good soon after I moved out of my mother’s honest for the first time has when I first got high. It was the best feeling in the world, something I will never forget. That beautiful feeling I now know as the worst mistake of my life. About a year past by until I realized I was hooked on crystal meth. As I learned new ways to use it. I also lost my job, dropped out of school, lost my family, I was lost my self. My life changed all in a blink of an eye. This drugs is no joke. No matter how may times I have tried to stop. It always crept up and I fall over and over again the years I have lost 5 jobs, and lived in a dozen different places. I went to jail about 10 times until. Finally I ended up in prison was a breaking point in my life.

Believe it or not but this crazy life style got myself into astem about a coupled years. I met people new people along the way who introduced me to all sorts of new things... things that. It’s not a good way to live your life, but not even a prison term could stop my evil ways. I can’t count how many times I have had to start my life over. How many times I have mode my loved one 5 cry. The past two years have been the worst for me. I was 50 lost in my addition and I was starting to believe there was no hope for me. The days were just passing me by and still I readained such in the same spot. Words can’t described how empty I felt. It’s as if something took a hold of my sow and buried it. I would sit around watching people have around living life, and nobody even noticed me. I remember the last week of getting high.

I was blank couldn’t even feel any more were the tears running double my check. At this point all I could do or think of is god. I prayed, I begged, I broke down to god asking him to save me because I was about ready to give up on myself. I prayed for help a chance to live. My life just over more time. Just the thought of that moment in my life bright me to tears. They say god works in mysterious ways whatever way he does it, he saved me. I got arrested that same day and usually people cry because of fear, usually people cry because they are going to Jail and they dont want do. I was the only girl in that cell crying with a huge smile on my face, I was happier I was there because in my heart I knew god had just answered my prayers. It’s been almost a year now and I’ve been sober every since. I did some time in prison and did some research In Jail. I learned about a drug program called Cri-help. So as soon as I got out I knew it was the place for me. So I’ve been living my life sober , thanks to god. I wake up every day ready for the way and go to lord Greatful for all the little things I’ve been blessed with instead of learning new ways to get high I go to meetings and learn ways not to get high. I ‘m back in school and I see my family every week and everyday my mother tells me how proud she is I wish that I could have this one moment for life.